Enduring fatigue...being blessed

Napoleon once said “The first virtue in a soldier is the endurance of fatigue; courage is only the second virtue.” There are many things of which I differ with Napoleon; however, the more I think about this quote, in this, Napoleon was spot on. Right now I am a soldier in an intense fight as my body is undergoing a tremendous assault. The side effects of my chemotherapy include fatigue. Each week, as the cumulative effects of the drug compound, I find that my energy drains a little earlier in the day than the previous week. Now that I am in week fourteen of my treatment, I require an afternoon rest break, something that I haven’t had the time for, or the pleasure of, since my preschool days (unless, of course, you count those few Sunday afternoons that I dozed in front of the TV)! As much as I want to endure the fatigue and carry on, this soldier retreats to the comfort of her sofa each afternoon to allow her body a momentary reprieve from the fatigue that creeps up like a cat stalking its prey and then suddenly pouncing, coming out of nowhere, overpowering its victim, and rendering it lifeless.

As a child, I remember walking through the woods from our house to my grandmother’s several times a day, popping in just to see what she was doing. Every afternoon, I would find my grandmother parked in her plush rocking chair in front of the TV “to allow her eyes to rest.” That was always her line; she was never taking a nap!  Her dinner dishes (back then we called the midday meal dinner) were neatly stacked in the kitchen sink, waiting to be washed later in the afternoon. Nothing got in the way of grandmother’s afternoon “eye resting”, not even an eager child with nothing better to do than to pop in unannounced, climb up in the adjacent chair and start chatting away!  These days as I find myself forced into my own time of “resting my eyes,” I think of my grandmother’s example of allowing her body to dictate her level of activity. She knew something that I am now learning: there are times when the body needs a pause and it is wise to heed the body’s advice. But I think my grandmother also understood there was more to a daily period of rest than “meets the eye!”

In the midst of my daily rest I am being blessed and my spirit renewed.  I have found that lazy, late summer afternoons bring particular joys: the beauty of the sun as it cradles everything in its path with a golden glow that has yet to be captured by Crayola; emerald green humming birds that visit our flower boxes and hover over each tiny blossom; yellow butterflies that flit and flutter in our garden; cardinals and goldfinches that take turns on the feeder as if they had read the entire Emily Post etiquette manual. Nature’s lullabies – tree frogs, cicadas, birds – remind me that all of creation sings of God’s majesty. As I sit in my swing I find much time for prayer and contemplation. For a few hours each day, time slows down and I am drawn into nature’s sanctuary.

Cancer is not a blessing, but through it, I am being blessed and my soul is being renewed. Through the beauty of nature, I see a glimpse of God’s majesty and goodness. What an awesome God we serve!


Soon after I announced that I had stage III breast cancer, I was asked the question everyone wants to ask but few will dare to. “Are you going to die?” was the question that fell off the tongue of the well-meaning friend who ventured into the unknown. I could tell my friend wasn’t prepared for the conversation that would naturally ensue when one asks a preacher a question about life and death. I saw that she was embarrassed that the question had slipped out. And I must admit, I wasn’t exactly prepared to answer this question. Not that I hadn’t thought about it. I had. In fact, I had thought about and prayed about this very question a lot over the two months that it took to arrive at my diagnosis. Everyone who has cancer considers this question at some point in their journey.

In May of 2016, my mother received a diagnosis of leukemia. It was a rare form that is difficult to treat. Her first question was “am I going to die?” Her doctor told her if the chemo didn’t work, she would die within six weeks. None of us were prepared for that revelation; however, when week number six arrived, mom was responding to the chemo. I remember her telling me “I was prepared to die; now I have to learn how to live again.” Living again was somewhat difficult for my mother to embrace as she had literally written herself off.  For six weeks, she had been living in the “shadow of the valley of death.” Thankfully she learned to embrace living again and had several good months before her kidneys failed.

In December when the doctors told my mother that her kidneys were failing and would not tolerate any more chemo, her first question this time was “how long will I live?”  The pronouncement was “about two weeks” and this timeline consumed her thoughts. When the two week deadline came and went and Mom didn’t go to heaven, she was confused and a little angry. Once again, emotionally and mentally, she had prepared to die so when it didn’t happen, she didn’t know how to respond. The process of dying had been difficult for mom, particularly the emotional stress. Spiritually, she was “ready to go;” emotionally, she just wanted the journey to be quick. We don’t always get what we want.

“We are all going to die someday” I replied to my friend’s question as to the state of my mortality. I could tell she wasn’t satisfied but the truth of the matter is that I don’t know if I am going to die from this disease. That’s not in my job description; that knowledge belongs to God. What I do have is a choice as to how I will live out my time on this earth. I have chosen to live each day to its fullest; to embrace the opportunities God places before me to serve; to cherish each day’s blessings; to look forward to the future. Every day I live with an attitude of hope. It is hope that keeps me focused on the present – working, loving, serving and eating chocolate when my tummy allows it! I don’t know why I got sick; I don’t know what the outcome will be. But I do know that God is sustaining me, working in me and through me, shaping me for my future. Even in the midst of illness I live in hope because “hope is a sure and fast anchor of the soul” (Hebrews 6:19a).

The Nose Knows

Studies show that our sense of smell plays a major role in how we feel, in our memories, and in our day-to-day decisions.  Our ability to smell is the sense closest linked to memory.  In fact, studies show that we can remember a scent with 65% accuracy after one year.  It’s been more than a year for sure but I can still remember the incredible sweet fragrance of the delicate lavender flowers on my mother’s lilac bush, even though that bush died long ago. I also remember the scolding I received from plucking all of the blooms off that bush when I was around six! One of the best scents I remember was that of laundry after being dried outside. The clothes had such a clean scent, baked and sanitized by the sun and softened by the wind. No amount of laundry detergent or dryer sheets can duplicate that scent. I also remember the wonderful aroma coming from our kitchen when my mother made homemade jam. Grape jam was my favorite and our whole house would smell like a biscuit smothered in grape jam for days after jam-making. In the fall, the aroma of curing tobacco permeated our entire farm. It was a sweet earthy smell that connected me to the land and my family. I can still walk in those old barns and recall the scent clinging to the rafters as if it were yesterday. Scents are a part of who we are.

But not all scents produce pleasant memories. After loving many cats over the years, I thought that I had mastered the art of unpleasant smells! I’ll spare you the details. But nothing, not even those not-so-sweet kitty smells, can compare to the smells associated with chemo. And it’s not just the scents; the smells also are paired with unpleasant tastes. Accessing my port for each treatment requires that the area be prepped with an antimicrobial that smells like a cross between fingernail polish remover and fingernail polish.  The odor takes your breath not only because of its veracity but because of the proximity to my nose.  As soon as my port is accessed, there is this overwhelming salty bitter taste from the saline that is now coursing through my body. The smell of the antimicrobial combined with the saline taste makes me feel sick before I even get the chemo drugs. Now it is almost impossible for me to paint my nails because of the association of the aromas.

The odor-taste association carries over as the chemo is given. The chemo drugs cause an unpleasant taste sensation that I really cannot describe other than bitter to the point that I actually shiver from the taste. No amount of lemon drop candy gets rid of the taste. The Adriamycin was given IV push so every time the nurse pushed the drug I received another bolus of bitter taste. My new drug, Taxol, does not produce quite as intense of a sensation but my body still “remembers” the smell-taste sensation from the first drug. It is hard to get rid of such unpleasantness.

Perhaps the most interesting thing about this whole ordeal is the “sixth sense” that I’ve developed. I can actually determine just by the sight, thought, or aroma of a food whether or not I will be able to tolerate it. Sometimes the smell alone is enough to give me a problem. Other times, I can just think about a food and my body will vote either yes or no. And, what I can tolerate changes from one day to another. Crazy, I know! There is no logic to this, only the nose knows!

Contemplating the role of scent in our memory processes, I am reminded of Psalm 141:2. David Haas sets this verse to music: 

Lord, may our prayer rise like incense in your sight, may this place be filled with the fragrance of Christ.

Chemo, with all its assorted scents, is bringing healing to my body. As I pray, I imagine my prayers rising upward to heaven, slowly swirling and circling with a beauty that can only be “smelled” as they reach the heavenly throne.  Your prayers, your cards, your gifts of flowers, lemonade, and food are a sweet fragrance of Christ that drowns out much of the unpleasantness and keeps me going. For all of your sweet heavenly “fragrances” I am most humbled and thankful.

On Being Blonde...

Pastor Debra at age 1

Pastor Debra at age 1

I was born a blonde. Actually, I was born without any hair so essentially, I am now back to my roots!  My baby picture proves my mother’s story that when I did get hair I started as a blonde!  Then the DNA pool took over and by the time I was four, my hair had turned as dark as midnight! But there is a precedent for my being a blonde, even if it was only for a few short years!!

Now, for an interim at least, I have returned to my blonde roots.  Before I started chemo, I was urged during my chemo class to go and get a wig before my hair fell out so I could match my current hair color. As you know, I was gray, so I thought that would be the natural choice for my wig color. Besides, I had been in some sort of graying process since my late 30s so I never considered another color. Being gray was part of my identity. I found my first gray hair when I was 32 and pregnant with my second baby. I still remember the morning I woke to find that stubborn gray hair sticking straight out of the front of my hairline!!  I contemplated pulling it but then I remembered those old wives’ tales that if you pull a gray hair, two will come back so I did my best to tame it!  Now I know the truth; more gray hairs will keep coming regardless of whether you pull them or leave them alone.  They have friends!  But enough about my graying process and back to the wig.

Getting a wig is not an easy process nor is it without emotional turmoil. I was skeptical of the ins and outs of wearing a wig because of my mother’s experience wearing one after her hair thinned.  She always felt it was too tight. Perhaps that was her excuse because one of the first times she wore it in public she was ridiculed so she never had the confidence to wear it much after that. I was worried that it might be too loose and fall off and expose my baldness. I worried that the wig would look, well, bad. But those worries were unfounded. The worse that has happened is that when my head itches, there is not a good way to scratch. On the top, the “cap” is woven in a way that I can’t stick my finger through. The sides and back are woven differently and I can actually get a finger in several places for scratching. And after a good scratch, I must readjust the wig to keep it in the right place! But that is really all the issues thus far. 

 In keeping with the advice I had been given, I told my consultant that I wanted a gray wig. She immediately made a face and that should have been my clue that gray might not be the best color. But I was in such a state I missed that clue. After telling her I wanted straight hair (it would be the only time in my life my hair would ever be straight so I thought I might as well get some mileage out of this situation) she set out to find the perfect combination of gray and straight hair. Note: there are limited selections in that genre – most gray wigs are short and layered.  When she put the gray wig on me, all I could see was someone who looked like a very old and sick mouse! Seriously! I sat there motionless and silent.  When the stylist asked me if I liked the wig I gave her a resounding no!  “Thank goodness,” she said, and then she went right to work, coming out with several straight, blonde styles.

Never in my life had I thought of myself as a blonde. But when she put the blonde wig on, I smiled. It was as if a weight had been lifted from my spirit. I could see myself as healthy and vibrant…all the things this cancer was trying to steal from me. The blonde wig allowed me to see myself differently. Suddenly I was alive again. And I looked younger. Double bonus.

How we view ourselves has a powerful effect on how we live. Sometimes negative circumstances can leave us without a sense of hope. An overly developed sense of ourselves can have the opposite effect. All of us, whether we admit it or not, have struggled with our sense of identity. We’ve all had thoughts about what others might say about us. We’ve all had situations that threatened our sense of who we are. But that’s the world talking. As Christians, we know who and whose we are – we are a child of God.  We’ve been adopted into God’s family. There’s no better identity than that…not even being blonde.

“But to all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave power to become children of God,  who were born, not of blood or of the will of the flesh or of the will of man, but of God.” 

John 1:12-13

Fragile: Handle With Care

Thirty three years ago, we brought home our firstborn. Confident in my ability to care for an infant, after all, I was a nurse with some experience in the newborn nursery; I went about my motherly duties as if I were a pro. I mastered the “football hold” of sticking my little one’s head under running water for a daily shampoo without getting water in his ears.  Instead of disposable diapers I opted for the diaper service and quickly learned to change diapers with the speed and precision of a Nascar pit crew! Two weeks into motherhood, my confidence was shaken when my precious little one contracted a cold. How could this be? I had done everything right and kept him at home, even limiting visitors to keep down the possibility of infections in the first tender month of life. As I remember it, my husband came home with a cold and, well, you know the rest of the story. Arriving at the pediatrician’s office, the first thing I remember him saying as he entered the exam room was “Well, it didn’t take you long to make him sick!” Not exactly what to say to a new mother as I burst into tears explaining how my perfect mothering skills had been thwarted by my husband’s cold.

Six weeks into chemo, my skills have once again been thwarted by a nasty cold. It certainly didn’t take me very long to get sick! How could this be?  I had taken every precaution. I washed my hands at least a hundred times a day. I stopped shaking hands and giving hugs at church to minimize the possibility of contracting something. I washed raw food with soap and water before eating it. I kept my distance from everyone. I wore disposable gloves to pump gas and kept hand sanitizer in my purse. Still, even with my best efforts, somehow I contracted a cold. What I wasn’t prepared for was how severe a cold is for someone on chemo. I should have the words “Fragile: Handle With Care” stamped on my forehead!  Because chemo suppresses the body’s defense mechanisms, my body is in a constant state of fragility. Something that I could previously have endured with little more than a runny nose and maybe a few sneezes suddenly is a major event, relegating me to bed for days unable to do anything due to weakness. My body now takes longer to begin healing and healing is slower than I have ever experienced. 

Sometimes, even with our best efforts, things happen. Even with my best mothering skills, my infant got sick. And, despite my best efforts at keeping germs and viruses at bay, one slipped in. My body is fragile right now because of chemotherapy but my spirit remains strong. Even in my moments of weakness, when I wondered how much more my body could endure, there was a deep assurance that God had not abandoned me. 

Faith is trusting in God regardless of what God is allowing to happen in our lives. The Apostle Paul knew this well. He learned to trust God even in the midst of hardship. He was content with whatever came his way. He endured a “thorn in his side” that God did not remove. In his second letter to the Corinthians, Paul makes it clear that our weaknesses are to be used for God’s glory: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness…for when I am weak, then I am strong.”  I am fragile but God is handling me with great care!




Over the years, Gary and I have shared our home with many cats so I feel like I am an expert on the subject of shedding…especially when it comes to cat hair!  One of our kitties, Velvet, was a prolific shedder! Velvet was everything her name implied. She was jet black with a tiny white spot on her tummy. Her fur was as soft as velvet and shiny as a new penny. But lurking under that fabulous top coat was an undercoat, softer than down, which, was always shedding in what seemed like giant clumps! These furry balls seemed to have supernatural powers which enabled them to cling to every surface. I know what you are thinking – why not just comb this cat to dislodge the undercoat and problem solved?  Not so fast my friends!  Combing was helpful but, the very next day, more furry patches would appear on the carpet, sofa, bed, and everywhere else Velvet decided to lie during her 22 hours of sleep each day! Velvet has since gone to kitty heaven which I thought would solve my war on shedding. Think again.

Once again, I have become an expert on shedding, only this time, it is my hair that can be found on every surface around the house. Some chemo medications cause you to lose your hair. In my case, Adriamycin and Cytoxan are the culprits. In preparation for this, I asked my beautician to cut my hair super short. Then my chemo schedule had to be pushed forward so my hair grew before my first chemo. After my second chemo treatment, my scalp became extremely sore; too sore to touch. Once the soreness set in, my hair started falling out; first in single hairs, then in huge clumps. Sleeping became difficult because it hurt to lie down. But the worst part is the loose hairs, everywhere and in everything. I’ve tried to keep them contained under my little snood (this is the name for those slouchy hats chemo patients wear) but they just keep finding a way to get loose! I thought about having my hair buzzed off but my scalp has just been too sore. So morning and evening, I grit my teeth and run my fingers through my hair to dislodge as many as possible and contain them in the trash.

The physical pain of hair loss is very real. But, the psychological pain has been, at times, almost suffocating. I know it sounds vain, but my hair has always been a part of my identity as a woman. I was able to accept turning prematurely gray; in fact, I flaunted it! But losing one’s hair is in a different league than having a headful of gray ones. The first time I mustered up the nerve to face myself in the mirror after most of my hair had fallen out I experienced a visceral, gut reaction. I didn’t recognize the woman staring back at me. Suddenly I felt very different, as if my exterior had been subverted overnight. I tried to hide my bald head from my husband because I felt so unattractive. Deep in my innermost being I have always known that hair, like clothes, is nothing more than window dressing. But when you lose the window dressing, it tests you. There is a voice that tries its best to tell you that you are broken, defeated.  My faith says otherwise.

My hair is a part of me but it doesn’t define who I am. The real me is inside. Under the surface I am the same person I was before cancer. God says I am beautiful, just as I am.  I am far more than the sum of my exterior. My true identity is that of God’s beloved child, hair or no hair. I am strong, beautiful, and whole because God has created me in God’s image. I am not broken. And nothing, not even cancer, can steal that promise from me.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,  I know that full well.”  Psalm 139:14

Daily Bread

Growing up on a farm, I’ve had a lot of experience with waiting. Farming is as much about timing and patience as it is about planting and harvesting. On the farm there are four seasons: planting, growing, harvesting and waiting. I am sure you are familiar with the first three seasons; however, the season of waiting is not as well defined as it intermingles itself in and around the other seasons.  It is a time mixed with anticipation, wonder, watchfulness, and dormancy.  After we plant the seeds we then must wait for them to burst open the doors of their prisons, their tiny heads fixated toward the sunlight. Each type of seed has a different waiting period before it bursts forth and you must be patient not to scratch the ground too soon looking for that first little escapee; otherwise, you will disturb its delicate root system sending the seedling to an early grave. Waiting for harvesting is particularly frustrating. I can hardly wait to pull that first tomato. As soon as there is an inkling of pink, I circle like a hawk waiting for the kill, my mouth drooling in anticipation as the pink color creeps over the first side, then the next, until it finally engulfs the entire sphere and its color changing from pink to bright red. Pulling the tomato too soon results in a half ripe tomato which then must be ripened in the window sill, forever changing the taste. Everyone knows the best flavor comes when the tomato is allowed to ripen on the vine. But…to get that glorious taste…we must wait.

Life with cancer is filled with seasons of waiting. Even before any treatment can begin, one must wait what seems like an eternity for appointments with specialists: surgeon, radiologist, oncologist, geneticist and so forth. Pathology reports take at least a week to arrive in your surgeon’s inbox while your mind rehearses every possibility that you’ve been able to ascertain from the internet. Every week you nervously wait on lab reports that determine if you can have another chemo treatment, risk eating a salad, go out in public, or if you’re confined at home on lockdown. After a chemo treatment, you wait for the dreaded side effects to set in: gastrointestinal ailments of all kinds, joint pain, weakness, low blood counts, headache or other insults to your body that you’ve read about, been warned about, and now wait to see if they will happen. There is the waiting for your hair to fall out but that’s another story. On a much larger scale, there is the waiting to see if the cancer will return. This is my second cancer journey. Five years ago I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Still waiting.

All of life is filled with waiting. I think that’s why Jesus taught us to pray “Give us this day our daily bread.”  We are to depend on God for just what we need for one day. Nothing more. We are to pray for our needs for this day, trusting that God will provide all that is required to navigate the day’s challenges. In our praying, waiting is no longer the enemy but a vehicle through which God speaks.  As we wait, seeds sprout, tomatoes ripen, and God sustains us in ways beyond our capacity to understand. It all begins with “our daily bread.”


I love lemonade. My favorite is the diet lemonade at Chick-fil-a. Several years ago I got hooked on it and since then it has been a special delight. The only problem is that the lines at Chick-fil-a are so long that I usually just skip going there altogether. So…I’ve learned that other lemonades are a close second, especially Crystal Light, and I can make that at home and carry it with me to work, thus eliminating the waiting in line at Chick-fil-a. Sometimes you just have to make the best of a situation, even if it’s not exactly what you want.

For the past five months, there have been a lot of lemons in my life. To begin with, my mother died in December from leukemia. She fought a good fight for eight long months; at one point, we thought she had achieved remission but it was only a temporary stay of five short weeks. When her leukemia came back, it came back with a vengeance as most cancers do when they recur, and none of the chemotherapeutic agents would touch it. I miss her. Grieving over the death of a loved one comes in waves, especially over the course of the first year. Some of the big waves you expect and you survive them; others come when you least expect them. Some of the waves knock you down; others gently wash over you, but all are filled with memories and a sense of loss. I am in my “year of firsts” as I experience all of life’s milestones for the first time without my mother. My birthday was especially hard as it was the first time in my life that I didn’t get a card from mom. And Mother’s Day is right around the corner. I am already bracing myself for this big wave.

Before I could even find time to grieve for mom, I found the lump in my breast – in mid-January to be exact.  More lemons.  It felt like being hit over and over with a hard ball as I’ve endured one test after the other, two surgeries, and the suffocating news of the final diagnosis. For once, I am glad that my mother isn’t here because my illness would have worried her too much.

Last week, my father was placed in Hospice care. Right now, he’s still at home with multiple caregivers. I’ve known this was coming for some time as dad has been slowly “melting away,” much like a snowman does as the temperature rises above freezing. First the carrot nose falls off, followed by the rocks that have been carefully placed to form eyes, mouth, and, of course, the buttons. Then the perfectly round shapes that form the body become uneven as the temperature continues to rise.  Bit by bit, dad’s functioning and cognitive abilities are leaving. I’ve not been able to spend much time with him recently due to my surgeries; then he caught a cold and developed an infection both necessitating that I stay away. Now, he doesn’t know me any longer. More lemons.

Last week I passed two little girls with a lemonade stand in their front yard. It was spring break and they were excited to get an early start on their summer project. Of course I stopped and purchased a cup. They used the good stuff – Crystal Light. Drinking my lemonade, I was reminded of whose I am. I belong to God. Cancer does not define who I am. I am a beloved child of The Almighty!

Cancer wants all of your time. It demands your attention with the doctor visits, the chemo treatments, the entire pharmacy of medications that you have to take to keep the side effects at bay. Every time I look in the mirror I am reminded that I have cancer. More lemons. If you let it, cancer will consume you. So what do we do when life gives us lemons?  Make lemonade, of course!

Pastor Debra's Journey through Breast Cancer

When I was six years old, our family moved into a new house. It was absolutely the most exhilarating thing that had happened in my six short years! For weeks prior to the move, I was giddy with excitement, imagining the wonders of my new pink bedroom decked out with new furniture. No one else in the family was getting new furniture – just me – so you can understand the complete ecstasy that had overtaken my childlike senses! My new room was at the end of the hall, a graduation of sorts, as I was now old enough to be away from the constant watchful eye of my parents. There was just one small glitch in the plan: my twelve year old brother’s room was beside mine and I could, on occasion, hear what he was up to in his room. “Boy noises” I liked to call them. Nonetheless, my new room proved to be everything I had imagined until one night I heard a bump… followed by another bump. Not just a little bump but a GREAT BIG BUMP; the kind of noise that makes a six year old certain that someone or something is creeping down the hall with nefarious intentions. For weeks, every time I went to bed, I heard the bumps until finally, I could no longer contain my fright and I began screaming for help. Of course, as soon as my mother started down the hall to see what on earth the matter was, the bumps ceased. This was repeated over and over. Pretty soon, Debra was in a heap of trouble, that is, until my mother, in her wisdom, figured out that my brother was responsible for the mysterious “bumps in the night!” For years to come, every time I heard any sort of bump in the night, my heart would begin to race as my mind took me back to the terror of my sixth year.

Earlier this year, the bump in the night returned; but this time, it appeared as two small dimples and a lump in the side of my breast. Once again, my heart began to race and I was immediately transported back to my childhood memories of a threat slowly but methodically making its way toward me. This time, however, it wasn’t a brotherly joke. This time it was a cruel twist of fate.  I had done everything a woman should do to prevent breast cancer. In my mind I rehearsed all the ways I had taken proper care of myself: regular checkups, weight under control,  exercise,  breast feeding my babies.  After a host of testing, surgery to remove the tumor and a lymph node biopsy, my husband and I are sitting in the oncologist office hearing that I have stage III metastatic breast cancer.  My heart raced. I wanted to throw up. I had to tell myself to breathe. Numbness set in. This was bigger than any bump in the night.

In his second letter to the Corinthians, the Apostle Paul wrote: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Cancer makes you vulnerable both physically and emotionally. Your body has been invaded. Your life is turned upside down and inside out. Suddenly you are weaker than you ever thought possible. But in the midst of weakness and vulnerability, in the terror of bumps in the night, I have found peace. It is the grace that Christ gives. I am surrounded by people who are supporting me and praying daily for my healing. Beloved friends in Christ have shaved their heads in solidarity. Whatever my needs are for the day, Christ has exceeded them. In my vulnerability, Christ’s power has been made visibly plain for others to see. “Therefore I am content with weakness; for when I am weak, then I am strong.” Glory to God!


    From goulies and ghosties and long-leggedy beasties
    And things that go bump in the night
    Good Lord, deliver us!

This was recorded in The Cornish and West Country Litany, 1926